beauty for ashes

Friday, January 20, 2006

kind of lost of what to type. o's results are going to be release in less than a month. SA might be a dream that wont come true. pretty positive though. maybe there'll be a miracle? nah i wont be that blessed to get through so easily. took the blessings and chances God gave me for granted in sec sch already. how much more can i ask?practically i have been slacking and rotting at home this hols. life seems to be rewinding as im repeating everything i did each single day. gave up hhope on trying to find a job. maybe it wasnt meant to be. DOTA has been keeping me occupied. I rule the game. hoho. nah just kidding. started playing not long ago and i have already trash andy. hahaha. :P

another week's going to be over. chinese new year is coming and i haven bought a single piece of new year clothing. argh. transport fee has doubled? or rather, by ten fold. a trip to queensway and another trip back costed 5 plus? this is madness.

missed sec sch. missed the times i lamed with the other guys in class, during recess or cca. the fun i had. missing her too.. but its over. Time to grow.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

its damn frustrating when you send an sms asking them a question which needs an answer. waited till the next day yet no reply came. It is only when you call and they finally bloody bother telling you their answer. typical excuse for not replying, "oh sorry i've forgotten all about it." thats when you would flare up as when a few messages were being sent to them, asking. Will it take up a large amount of your time replying a simple question? And if things doesnt work out, they would start pointing fingers and in the end you get blamed.

Monday, January 16, 2006

didnt post pics before. gonna try now out of boredom.


the BIG eight. lol.


during mrs koh wedding.


tsk tsk. caught you sleeping. wahaha =P



anybody miss him?


worm boy!


drawn and taken during chem lesson. wahah practically laughing throughout the whole lesson.


my cg! missing a few peeps though. (the background's pretty cool. hah)


najeeb! hah. a good buddy for 4 years.


argh. i seriously didnt know what happened.


eda. my cousin for 16 years. still going. if she's alive it will mean i have a hard life. hah


this is pretty spastic.


so is this. :P


fitrah.. acting to be hardworking. shrugs. haha


glen is gonna kill me for this.


jeremy. hah his pants is hungry too.


jacob boy!


gladly he isnt jacob ong. :P


my san jie and eda.


stop eating ted! same goes to you gerald.


this is what happens when you are in toysrus.


prom.


4e1 2005

thats all folks. lazy to upload anymore. i have tons. hah.

everything seems to be in a whirl. happenings rushing through me like a running train.

Sat
God gave me a major slap on my face asking me to wake up. His coming is so near. very near. the sharing i had with the older ones,felt His presence and it was Him through them who was speaking to me. after that joined their cg and saw a video clip by the author of the book Heaven is so real. get the book. its good. testimony by the author is very enriching. another slap telling me His is coming. whatever i went through that day is pretty hard to describe. ok before all this had cg at grace's house. i guess i understood how some of the people felt about the cg and esp someone. names shall not be mentioned. i guess by attending the older peeps cg is alot diff from ours. i guess she expected more from her own cg. sometimes looking back, its partially my fault. i should have done something but i didnt. this time i want to bring the cg on a whole diff level in their relationship with God.

Sun
i had a shock. big shock. people are starting to look almost the same as another. when i saw somebody today i was so surprised. somehow that person is starting to look more like somebody else. i really wonder what this means when i felt somehow its connected to me. its really damn freaky. pray for enlightment.

Looks like getting a job for me is impossible. i dont know but im getting the feeling He doesnt want me to work. maybe i should spent time in church with reverend since he's so lonely now without the youths coming down to church on weekdays like the holidays. waha. probably i'll do that. till then i doubt i'll get any job. oh well. the agency has not called even once. Two weeks has passed. this sucks. Had a even greater interest in the bible more than like never before. i didnt expect simple minude details in the bible could mean many things. how i wished i was in bible college with xavier and the rest for 3 months. kinda envy them. hah. they found out so much truth about the bible. i was so fascinated by their sharing on sat.

shall end here. hopefully life would be better tomorrow. hah.

Friday, January 13, 2006

ARGH WHAT THE HELL! MY GUITAR'S DISFIGURED!! URGH!

ok. thats all i want to say.

Monday, January 09, 2006

realised i was placed in many different situations through out my life. i guess this is part of His plan. Being able to handle problems.

people were able to obtain another chance another opportunity. how about me? where is mine? no turning back for me. no turning back. its all my fault anyway. what more can i complain about?

kenneth came my house in the morning. he ran away from school. BAD BOY. went out soon after. met up with andy and wei kiat. went to plaza sing. ate. walked around. went to arcade for a while. they dumped me. found them. went to meriden to play pool. and damn it. costed $38.60 IT'S EXPENSIVE. thats my phrase. yes it was. for three hours. didnt know the rates were 10.80 before holiday eve. argh. after playing had dinner with my parents. then came home.

what to do tomorrow? same old word. ROT.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

went to another job agency. hopefully there'll be a job. went there with valerie and gerald. after that went to cinileisure. lazed around in BK. talked nonsense. Went to bugis next. gerald's meeting Si Lin. both of us tagged along. Met up with her, went to suntec. Had fish and co for dinner. expensive. Walked around suntec. Valerie was like looknig for jobs in the shops. oh well. went home soon after.

*memories kept. realised i never laugh once when we talk ever since that day.

Forevermore

There is no one who is like You
You stand alone as God
All the earth will bow before You
They'll see You as You are
And Your people sing

Jesus is the Lord Who reigns forevermore
Jesus is the Lord
He reigns He reigns

Heroes tremble in Your presence
Kings forget their crowns
Mountains shudder at Your whisper
Nations fall face down
And Your people sing

Jesus You are Lord You reign forevermore
Jesus You are Lord
You reign You reign

hmm got so much to say but im lazy to type. Went to school to collect my eagles award from the general office. received moe's letter one two weeks ago. Didnt expect to receive though. Teachers didnt inform me that im being nominated again. oh well. its pretty much a good surprise. yay. now i've got the money to buy my comic. waha.

a part of me still cant forget, cant let go. i guess i'll never would. dont even have the guts to talk to her. hah im such a wimp

guess i would be visiting another job agency in a few hours time.its kinda depressing when everyone's busy while you are not. dont know why. hah.

*I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go
There's no other name
By which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Interesting day.first went to church. Had a talk with reverend ng. Next decided to go to job agencies and apply. Need a job desprately dont wish to rot at home for 3 months. Went to bugis first. Walked one big round around bugis village and found out that the job aganecy there has closed down. thanks ar Er Jie. hah. wasted an hour plus there. Lame-d in burger king with valerie and david. Rest were either working or at school. oh ya forget to mention they were with me. second stop raffles place. Its damn hilarous finding that agency. Called chun si aka da sao. hah. Locating the place was simply ridiculous if you were there. Funny is the word. filled in forms, interviewed and damn got to work on sat. the consultant there kept laughing at valerie. weird. Next stop tanjong pagar. er jie gave me another address of the agency. Lucky here never close down or i guess i'll cry. hah. filled in forms but no interviews. pretty complicating la this form. stupid. cant keep it short and sweet. haha.

After that we went to dhouby ghaut. Saw people in school uniforms. What a nostalgic feeling. hah school has reopened and im not in a school U. Feels kinda weird. Pretty cool though. Suan-ed some peeps hah. Went to arcade. hah they played ddr. fooled around there for a while then went to ps. visited yamaha. didnt konw they revamped the shop. And damn they locked up the sound room. Cant enter it anymore. After that walked around in comics connection and i haven bought 2 issues for celestial zone two already. urgh. no school no income. hah. had dinner at the food court. after that they wanted return to the arcade. stayed there for a while again then came home.

lazy to write anymore. no one's available everyone seems to be working or studying. oh well. all the best people. shall rot at home tml. hah.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Wrap me in your arms

There is a God who loves me
Who wraps me in His arms
And that is the place where I've changed
And that's where I belong

[Chorus]
Take me to that place Lord
To that secret place where
I can be with You
You can make me like You
Wrap me in Your arms
Wrap me in Your arms
Wrap me in your arms

great song from the cd "battlecry".

Sunday, January 01, 2006

ok its a new year. happy new year to those who visits this blog.

had prayer meeting. His presence was strong. Cried. hah again. Setting my priorities right. I'll bear the cross. Full time serving. The journey's not going to be an easy one. responsibility is great. As a spiritual leader, pretty pressurizing but i guess i'll handle.

new year resolution.
- handle and lead the youth ministry well.
just one yea. cant think of anymore. shall end here.