beauty for ashes

Monday, May 21, 2007

i felt i failed as a chair of the youth comm. I dont even know how to help, lead well nor communicate. Walking on my ways rather than God's. my own revelations than His. Im afraid the whole ministry is about to crumble in my hands. HELP!

Lau is leaving for aus in few weeks time. friends seem to be leaving one by one. they come and they go, like noone knows. friends that i've known for years looked like aliens to me right now.

every action has its cause and its consequences. it's not fair to push all the blame to God whenevr something omnious happened to us. Sometimes we sin and bad things happened. I guess that would be the consequence that we need to face when we sin and not blame God. We would all need to reflect of every little action and desicion we made. Be prepared.

Ridge is sounding nicer and better by the day.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Ridge is back. And she sounds a whole lot better! hah

51% worship 49%me. The percentage looks small, but it isnt easy to achieve.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

so why should i even bother now.

im so disappointed in myself for the past few days. Things i said, things i done. All so wrong. i was never good with such stuff. Once it was soured, it could never be sweetened like it was ever before. I thought everything was alright but it wasnt. I lost one of my best pal.

Whats my problem. I wonder. I see people come and go. Backslided and never came back. So why?

Whenever i see them, im scared that they would never return. Why are they doing these? Why did i judged them? Why did i?

Its all so wrong. I'm sorry for all the things i said and done. Im sorry.

A miracle. I need one.