so why should i even bother now.

im so disappointed in myself for the past few days. Things i said, things i done. All so wrong. i was never good with such stuff. Once it was soured, it could never be sweetened like it was ever before. I thought everything was alright but it wasnt. I lost one of my best pal.

Whats my problem. I wonder. I see people come and go. Backslided and never came back. So why?

Whenever i see them, im scared that they would never return. Why are they doing these? Why did i judged them? Why did i?

Its all so wrong. I'm sorry for all the things i said and done. Im sorry.

A miracle. I need one.