if that was a test. i failed terribly.

rot myself away at home. inexplicable feelings, emotions. I felt helpless.admit im not consistent in my qt. sigh.

haha im kinda lost. dont know what to say now. It seems that im being taken for granted.

It's raining ducks and chickens.

faltering.

the world's greatest fool.

can you handle the truth?

Thanks to those who have chipped in for the gift, appreciate it very much. Got a pair of limited edition nike shoes under the courtesy of my cousins and church friends. :D

was reflecting about my daily life and past during cg. how crappy it was. im utter rubbish.

pointless. trash anyway. i was never.

i guess entering SA is not possible. I given up hope. totally. 9 pts to get into the sci stream. i dont think i will even get close. not even that close. Realised how helpless i was.. i cant do anything. Sigh.

Sometimes having my name Aaron has some advantages and disadvantges.
Firstly you get to know people's secrets. usually i get some type of "er erm" msges or secrets that were by chance "accidentally" sent to me. hah. since then i became the secret keep of many people. so please dont be too hasty while you sms ya? You put yourself in an unfavourable position.

Secondly for national exams such as O Levels you are "lucky" number one.In addition that Im in the first class. Double Lucky. So i had my o level el oral today.First one to take the exam. The one who sets the school standard, that's what Ms Wong had said. hah. Shall say i screwed my picture and somehow my reading. Argh. And we are getting O levels chinese result tml. AGAIN im the first one whose's results is going to be annouce to the whole school first. How lucky can i get?

Thirdly.. i wonder if teachers has a discrimination against the name Aaron. I never get to attend bio lessons without teachers not picking on me. haha. Physics lessons i ended up sitting with a noisemaker under the supervision of the teacher. And i get to do all the weird stuff..

Sometimes i felt like im a ball.. pushing me around. Stop please. Stop telling me all that. sigh.

like yes.. its going to happen. I'm sure of it. patheic is the word. useless.

Hectic day. Didnt enjoy it as much. Emaths mock exam was like a piece of cake? no it was shit. hah. Everything went haywire in what ever i do. Sob sob. I feel so helpless, cant do anything right.oh well.

sleeping late again. waha.

here i am.. wondering what to do again. Things arent the way it seems. All for that its going to be my end. Light seems to be fading.. cant see. i'll admit im not spiritually strong as before. dismantled.

no more maple tonight. Im gonna sleep. My mood and temper is rising and changing. What to do? endure endure.. when the day i burst hah. Its a mystery. How i wish i could just sleep and not wake up. Waha just kidding.

Well well, so its pity. I dont need it. Take it back and go away.

ok.. learned a thing or two today, how to handle crying people. but sometimes i think i make situation worse.

a short post before i sleep.

i'll say today isnt a really good day for me. I just dont have the mood or heart to do anything. Spirits are rather low and moody. It seems that it all ended me looking like a fool. tick tock.. prelims are coming.