making matters worse..is that all i can do?it was suppose to be a great day today..but it turn out to be really terrible..argh..

________________________________such a simple word..is it very hard to say?!

ARGH im very and i mean VERY pissed now..argh..

went out the whole day..nothing much to say..sigh.

________________________sIgH..fAlLeN dEePeR

Lets see..its goin to be the same anyway. SAME SAME SAME..what can i say? It has never changed, im just a patheic useless fool who is still dreaming.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

PAGE AVENUE rocks when u play it out loud!!......WAHHAHAHAHA

__________________________________________thrown away in a corner..ZZZ

School..rather horrendous?
sigh..im so useless.Can't even help or cheer up the one i love..worthless fool.Sometimes im really feeling tired of myself.

sigh..why am i so patheic?sigh..actually i found this new way of shutting myself up for the past few months since last year. Jam my ears with loud music..rather interesting effect..haha..

oh well..wat a day today..was feeling super frustrated after school and i vented my anger on the sec 1 cadets..shouted at them again. Sigh had meeting with Ms Ku and Ms Ng after school.After which Amaths extra lessons. Was feeling really down..dont know why, in short i just wanted to be alone.Went to first floor and sat there for like 15 mins?Prayed, poured everything out to Him.Decided to change spot as it was getting hotter. Sat at level 2 staircase..afterwhich..didnt really expected Ms Lim to come. Gosh..i was so shocked. Something hurt me then..oh well. Went back home alone. When i got home just to get a scolding from my mum..argh.


_____________sigh..its not that i dun want to tell you anything..sorry..

im drowning in my sorrows ..

I dont know why. Flag day was kinda terrible today?All the while i look as if i was alright, but inside im crying.Sigh..why..why am i feeling that way? To see..hear..sigh.People commented that i dont look stress..but im actually torn up inside. I very tired..i dont really have the strength to move on.Its rather contradicting to what i have told her. Sorry..you could do it, you have the ability to do so..but i don't. And I have finally gotten my guitar strings when the group went dohby ghaut. Went straight home after that. Was rather tired and down went i got home.I don't believe it, i actually cried again. Sigh..took a nap..didnt want to think too much about it. Woke up at 530 for tuition. Had a really bad headache when i woke..sigh, couldn't really concentrate during the lesson. After which went back to my old house at yio chu kang to celebrate my cousin's birthday.All the memories i had there flooded me. How time flies. Met my neighbour..he has grown quite a bit and matured. Having chem mock exam on monday..but i haven even started revising a single chapter..im so screwed. Bio is on tues and i have only revised a few patheic chapters. Going off now..

______torn up..my heart was being stabbed endlessly

feeling depressed?feel like dying?It's easy..take a knife and slash ur wrist. MUWAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA

_____________________aaron became retarded a few years ago..*

today..bad bad day..the whole morning was spoiled all because of one stupid small little thing..another thing is..someone really pissed me off in the morning..cant he just shut the hell up for one moment?he is the person who is always making saracstic remarks which makes matters worse..i've got one thing to tell him..i have my own style of doin things..it aint ur bloody problem..so piss off..so what if i dont scold them..wat the hell u could u do to me?im the overall in charge of the camp..so back off..if u want me to give them hell..u shall then get it from me too..even though u are the bloody overall in charge of the unit but in tis camp i am the one who has the final say..not you..and remember this is MY camp..i wont change negatively just to meet up with ur expectations..and i expected u to do a better a job then what u are doin now!!since u know tht u arent really doin anything then what are telling me all those bullshit for??!
wanted to scold this person after all his constant stupid remarks..we were already handling one problem during tht time and yet he created another one..wanted to shout back at him and scold him with all the vulgarites just to shut him up..but i glad i didnt..tolerated his shit..
my tolerance has a limit..and it is breaking soon..we may have fun together..but sometimes u just cross the line and its way over line..
many unhappy stuff happen then..
afternoon was alrite..unexpected things happened..haha!!and meeting with xavier was kinda enriching..learnt alot..went to my uncle's house in the night for another gathering..
slping soon i guess..bye

wee~~praise the Lord!Have a rather great week..lazy to go into details..=P God is truly amazing..haha!!well well..was practising my guitar just now..wahha!!was playing scales and i have made an improvement..hah!Its going to be another busy day for me tml..racky trip, band meeting and a gathering at my uncle's place..oh well and bio mock exam is on the upcoming monday..hopefully i could get at least a B3..wahaha!got to mug mug mug..
Sleeping soon..byee

sch was ok today..wahah..finally huh.Had pe in the morning..played soccer..was nt too bad.Lessons begins nxt.Few hours later im feeling slpy..Zzz..almost fell asleep..haha.Had tuition when i came back from sch and now im slacking..haha!

sigh..im so lost..all i can do now is to pray.

heh..happy tht things between us are better..

< =) >

had a rather great day today..but there are still some problems though..sigh.After service had lunch at coffeeshop opposite..then had a game of basketball with quite a no of people.Haha some people challenged us to a game..we didnt calculate the score but we might have won..whaha.After which went for soccer..wahah im goin mad..2 sports in a day..training was nt too bad..wahaha..came back home with eda.Met up with her outside her house..came home bathe..slack..whaha.

hmm..happy..but..sigh..hah nvm..should stay happy =D

stay cool always..^

yesterday, went to church for pastor anton cruz service..and yesterday, God really touched me.I broke down..just cried..i finally come to realise many things..got to thank Daniel, Xavier, Ah Liang, Vincent and Guo Qing.Sorry for not telling u guys anything yesterday..i don't know how to explain and just kept my mouth shut..sorry.After the service they brought me to the pastor and he prayed for me..he knows everything.He told me nt to focus on that area..but on my education..and thru his prayer i finally knows what is my purpose in life..hah!its seems tht my journey would not be an easy one..i decided to start from the scratch..i still don't really know some parts of his prayer though..hehe =P.Overall, God has really showered me his blessings greatly..hah..this was roughly what happened yesterday..didnt really know how to express it all..

Goin to church soon..thts all i guess.bye

_____________i will be waiting and all this shall be in his hands^

WHY..why am i getting back those mixed emotions again..pain..sorrow..happiness..hahaa..help..

school was alright i guess..its always i guess*haha..some unhappy stuff happened..kinda worried for some ppl..sigh..

sigh..i want to fly again..with you..but in the end it might all be just a dream..but the foolish me shall still wait..hah..

________________________stay happy..

hah..terrible day today..dun wanna go into details..but bio was kinda fun today..wee..blog almost done..haha

whats happening?i dunno..sigh..