some random thoughts of mine before i leave.

i guess yesterday was an awesome night. holy spirit was really with us, felt His presence. the peace and joy is undescribable. bestowed with numerous gifts. im happy. very grateful.

went to school without knowing that i have a test to do. oh well still manage to scribble nonsense. hopefully i'll pass. going off to sec sch now for ncc training. shall blog more later.

though i've been lying to myself, contradicting. but for now it's better to stay at one person.

i got my laptop back and guess what, there are still problems with it. stupid acer. useless laptop. regretted buying it. ah got my test results back. i failed NA. sad. got to retest for NA. this sucks. just passed EM and im darn happy abt it.

ah.. im psycho-ing my dad to buy me an ipod. hopefully he'll give in and get me one. HAHA.

aiya. dont know what i am doing. was blown off.

school's tml! hahaa i didnt even bother to touch my homework. i dont think any of my lecture's gonna care anyway. zzz. it's late gonna sleep. night ppl.

there are things that are beautiful because one couldnt possess them.

thats the reason.

zzz. i come to notice i have a habit. while on a bus, car or whatever the vehicle i tend to stare at the surroundings looking out at the scenery. i dont like talking to ppl much when travelling. haha. just like looking at the environment, going into a world of my own. though the journey is the same, i'll never get bored of looking cause there's always something out there waiting to be discovered. haha. and at times even though im familiarised with the surroundings, occasionally i would find something new. i know im weird. ha.

well had cg at 10 am today. so early lah. was very sleepy. grace had a new hairdo. haha! after which band meeting at 1 and they discussed about some training programs for the up coming training sessions. die. im made to be a mentor. personally i cant even fend for myself and they ask me to teach? dunno what shld i really do. i myself still got so much to learn. next went beach road with some church peeps for lunch and then watched "just my luck" with some cg ppl. overall i guess the movie was pretty alright.

well approximately half a year is gone. it's rather scary that 2006 is moving at such a tremendous pace. soon poly will be over, soon i'll be in ns, probably i'll make it to uni next, then work life; next will be marriage only if i manage to find a wife. hahaa. then maybe kids. i'll grow old, and i finally die. hah. well thats life eh?

i guess thats the typical lifestyle. It aint going to be so smooth sailing as when God prepares us for His kingdom. well i dont know what to say now. just blabbering something out. however i'll look forward to the challenges im being set for. woot. zzz

so much to talk about the retreat. but i'll cut the long story short. refreshed, saw His glory, felt His glory,He released me, im feeling good. the sermons were enriching. church's changing and growing. a great revival in the youths. though it's time to start multiplying and not another ignition of the fire.

i know i kinda let down a friend in cg. how much she would want us to bond. but of the times i kinda brush her off. i didnt mean it. sorry.

It's Father's day. I didnt realised. couldn't pluck up the courage to wish my Dad happy father's day. i wished i did. I really wanted to tell him I love you Dad. but i just chickened out. im such an idiot.

I Love you Dad.

been too lazy to type. will update soon. im off to malaysia. bye.

a dream i cant chase.