i told God i wanted to take a break. tired. really tired. but the answer i think i got is no. Press on He said.

Thank you Father.

Alright. A breakthrough for me today.In terms of guitar skills and spiritually i made a breakthrough. new style. Thank God. Worship was awesome today. Prayer meeting was great too.A revival in the youths. Miracles shall be seen. Souls shall be saved. More people shall come before and worship Him. How great is our Heavenly Father.

sometimes im getting too paranoid. a simple yet important lesson of faith and trust i learnt today. im sorry girl. i really am.

maybe losing her twice made me so afraid. Here i apologise to you for being such a fool. Sorry.


wo de shen shi qi miao ke wei

maybe she is right. i dont have much to offer. ups downs.

Bio practical was terrible i guess. Sure to fail. Bet i would get a one digit score. How saddening. Hopefully physics and chemistry wouldnt be that tough.

inferiority runs through me. realised im nothing.. compared to them. nothing. In terms of academic.. everything.. im way below. they have so much to say i have none.. so many memories but i dont. A better choice they are.. im not. Inferior. Sometimes it just haunts me. Pain. Nobody knows. Hah.

Jc open house. AJ, SA, NJ. dont even dare to dream. where i stand? no where. forget it.

its freaky very very freaky.

Felt so much lighter after yesterday's prayer meeting with a few others. Really felt the presence of God within us. Really good. Im really praying hard. Starting to feel that something is brewing. Im really afraid. Must i go?

like a rushing river into the sea.

like what the hell. my computer is wrecked. all my info gone. argh pictures, songs everything that i stored gone in one day just like that. sigh.

made me think about some happenings in my life. maybe one day im gonna lose everything in just one day.

not being able to do anything but to watch. Painful isn't iit?

wake up Aaron. stop being so blur. at times you are such a klutz. im blur till the extent that even i cant accpet it. Worthless.

though i was upset, shout screamed complained. i never once hated you.

alright. studied in church, came home to get ready for my grandma's and cousin's birthday party. My brother should be clelbrating too but was confined in camp. Coincidently its my grandma brother and cousin birthday today. Furthermore its children's day. haha.