Well well gonna post abit before i sleep. Just got back from a church friend's wedding dinner. Hmm thats the 4th wedding i attended this year..wahaha and 3 of them were held at this month. A year of celebration eh?
School's tomorrow and the heck i DON'T wanna go back.. homework not done.. etc etc.hah.

oh well gotta work harder.. i wouldnt be posting much anymore.. so this blog would be temporarily closed. Yeah.. sleeping now.. good nite

reflected the whole night.. indeed how long? how long must i have sorrow in this heart. But its true that i was really happy during those period of time.. but everything always came crashing down. And now im drifting further from my friends.. even them.. they are just so far away. Life is just the same as before? Teared when i was browsing through this particular website just now.. hahaha how foolish of me. Lost in this wilderness.. will i be able to see light once again?Am i able to get out? No complains.. this is how its going to be.

this verse hits me again this morning and describes what am i feeling now and for a very long time.. thank you aunty simone

Psalm 13
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must i wrestle with my thoughts and everyday have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God. Give light to me eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say," I have overcome him," and my foes will rejoice when i fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me

hmm went for a haircut during the afternoon.. all of sudden my mum was like telling me all about contact lens and stuff at my aunt's shop. I was like ok i will take care and blah blah blah.. then suddenly she said.. ok this friday im bringing you to the optician and get your lens. Took me off guard.. i thought she was just nagging and gonna get them for me by the end of the year or sometime later. Weird.
Rushing through all my holiday homework now.. i still want a break.. have been going back to schoolf for the past 3 weeks. Missed a gathering with my primary school friends.. urgh.

trying hard.. but the more i think the more im upset.. sigh.

oh well.. eating dinner now.. buh bye

hmm what the hell.. accidently deleted the previous post.. stupid lagging com.

Sing like the saved
we are gonna sing like the save X4

sing la la la la la la le X4

a joyful noise we will make X4

hahhaha... see. get what i mean? history has repeated itself. Oh wow.. how nice.. it doesnt matter if you prayed.. it doesnt matter.. the result would remain the same.. the same.. i tried.. tried.. but sorry.. i cant.. i cant.. sliding.. sliding..

looking back.. what bullshit man.. utter nonsense.. utter nonsense..

why even bother salvage this friendship in the first place since things are going back to square one? why the hell do you even bother?! Stop it stop it.. dont come and give me rubbish.. once is enough.. the whole thing is done for.. hahahahaha.. you can stop now.. you can.. dont say you cherished it.. being played like a bloody puppet.. just a mere shell

noisy its freaking noisy.. i want PEACE!

did housechores in the morning.. school later.. roamed around j8 after school.

fine fine.. i shall be the bastard now.. im weak.. useless.. patheic.. time to change isnt it?thanks for everything.. thanks.. i guess this friendship to you is just a piece of junk that should be thrown away.

great day.. service was excellent. Went orchard with my cg later.. spent abt 5 hours there. Tiring.Walked the whole of orchard. Final stop was tanglin mall and we spent almost an hour in a toy shop..haha. Had fun.. we came up many clues for the upcoming youth game by us.. i cant belive how "evil" we are.. hah! Btw we were on news.. hah lazy to go into details

The way you put everything between us is as if nothing was wrong.. so easy.. its like im just a bloody clown.. thanks.. thanks..

up and early. hah. just did qt. wide and awake. I dont have the stamina to stay up till 12 anymore. Wanted to watch shaman king before i sleep but i couldnt.. too tired.. so in the middle of the show fell asleep..whaha. sorry eh.. dont mean to not wanting to talk to you.

gonna get ready now.. so post more later.. bye

SEA competition turned out fine.. hmm girls are the overall champions again. As for the boys we improved! yay!for kayaking events we finally manage to clich a medal!Woohoo.. well done part As. haha my cadets.. HAH!

hmm tomorrow's ms ku and grace's wedding hah would be attending ms ku's first then grace.. :D

now i finally know the reason.. hahahahaha.. how contradicting. Words and actions are different.. hahaa changes in the tide?hahahaa

BOOM BOOM BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! woo hoo..

_________________________ again again and AGAIN

just got back from SEA competition. Hmm the cadets actually exceeded my expectations.. hah they managed to get a number of golds. Congrats peeps.. skipped chem. Oh well heck with it. Going to church now.. update more later..

sometimes its really heart breaking to know that maybe im being played. really upset.. felt like crying. why?

had school in the morning today.. after which went to mac for breakfast.. funny events there but lazy to type. went home.. played ps2. Addicted to alteller iris eternal mana.. hah. Finally something to divert me away from the real world. After 2 hours of gaming studied.. did my tuition homework.. the whole afternoon was studying.. took a dinner break. then my teacher came. Lesson ended pretty late.. snuck to my room to use the computer for a few mintues while she was in the toilet.. wahaa. Then here i am.. haha..

tomorrow's a busy day.. lesson at 10. going down to sembawang yacht club at 1145. ncc SEA competition tomorrow. No hope.. cant win with our current strength.. but oh well who knows.. miracles happens?waha. Then going back down to school again for chem.. after chem will be going straight to church. Hmm finally rehearsal.. hopefully everyone could turn up.

not sleeping tonight.. hahaa.

I'll worship at your throne
Whisper my own love song
With all my heart I'll sing
For you my dad and king

I'll live for all my days
To put a smile on your face
And when we finally meet
It'll be for eternity

And, oh, how wide you open up your arms
When i need your love
And how far you would come if ever I was lost
You said that all you feel for me is undying love
That you showed me through the cross

I'll worship you my God
I'll worship you my God
I love you,
I love you
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with you
Be with you

a beautiful song..

got a new skin..

aaron lim that's why you are such an idiot.. you trust people too easily, you are too soft.. ends up you getting cheated and hurt.

people are starting to fall sick these few days due to the freaking weather.. well drink more water peeps. have been popping pandols in ever since mid year starts.. headaches just wont go off.. urgh.

mugging everyday and now.. cant slack no time. mr siva told us to relax abit but nah.. when i got home started revising. time time.. there isnt much time..

still cant make a breakthrough in my guitar skills.. am i going to be stuck in that level forever?or am i not cut out for guitar?sigh

oh shit.. those two are starting to talk exactly in a similar way.. good or bad?hah.

my impetousness caused me everything.. i dont know what the problem is.maybe its me.. picking myself up but its hard.. im really afraid

* im sorry, i really did try hard to keep myself together.. i really did. i prayed.. but sometimes its still just so difficult..i thank you for your help and prayers. i know i have disappoint you greatly. sorry.

what would a guy do if the girl he waited for so long leaves?

"i'll wait another ten years."

Thats what he said..