beauty for ashes

Thursday, May 26, 2005

not being myself.why.why.why.
scared.losing.
im going crazy.woohoo.

olevel chinese.4 days.afraid.
at least a B3.
sigh.help.

saturday.band practice.
guitarist.
looking forward.gonna make it special.

haha.. weird huh?

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Grace words struck me during cg.. to have a good relationship with God.. quality time spent indeed is needed.. so as a good relationship with your friends.. quality time is needed too.Was observing some people today er jie.. xav..moses.. many more. haha how saddening..

girl.. i understand what u say.my best friend u will be..but i will be still waiting.. a fool i shall be. God shall show it all =).

I have been thinking..cried.. cried out to Him. Show me Lord..

blow by blow it came down one me.. So many things to think about.. Everything i had were so shortlived.
Suspicion overwhelms me.. i dont know.

washing my hands off it.

Wake up!

Whatever you said were lies?

Hopefully things will be back to the same again. Sigh

Disappointed

im falling sick.. flu virus is attacking me. help.. cant afford to be ill now.

love her.

___________i know my God saved the day, His word never fails and my God made a way for me..

Friday, May 20, 2005

sigh.. saddened by somethings.. why?it doesnt seem to be the same anymore, it isnt like this before. It isnt..sigh.I dont know whether should i be happy or sad. Why has it come to this stage..why?My happiness is always so shortlived. Whats the point?

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

fatigue over takes me.. im feeling weary. hah?

utter disappointment in myself..sigh. My carelessness caused me to lose a whole chunk of marks in my papers.. sigh.

O levels chinese.. counting down to 13 days..

being sucked into this endless abyss.. help

Monday, May 16, 2005

sigh.. i dunno why. something is definitely wrong. it gripped me again.. afraid.


training in the morning.. cadets were tortured. Breakfast cum lunch at kfc later..tried to enter the arcade but was chased out. After tht went to ang mio kio central and roam the area around myself.. then came back home. Rested, watched anime and mugged chinese. Results are coming back tml.. dread it.Time is passing way too quick.. O level chinese in 13 days time.Thats all i guess..bye

Sunday, May 15, 2005

sigh..whats wrong?All of a sudden there's this bad feeling gripping me..its really agonising. Its isnt because of my friend, its me..myself Aaron. Sorry girls.. didnt have the mood to really chat just now.I will do a better job next time..hah.

after they left..and i dont know, i just cried.. broke down.. sigh. Played, worshipped..terrible feeling


___________Lord my strength is in you.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

was that a test?sigh..

thoughts.running.thinking.why am i so helpless.sigh.

Exam?screw it.. i dont want to drop to combine science class.Stupid school.

Its a promise of a lifetime.. i will never break it..

Im tired.. i really am.Will you help me out?

Sunday, May 08, 2005

hmm.. it was my aunt's wedding yesterday. She's finally off the shelf.. whahaaha :P. Had a great day yesterday. Woke up at 7 in th morning..got ready and went to my first aunt house. Almost everyone was there and we waited for the groom.My aunt was in the room. At around 10 the groom came. Didnt let him in. First he and his best man had to finish a can of some snake drink thingy. It was freaking horrible. Guess what? They actually enjoyed the drink, laughing away and even asked for more. Next he had to finish a bottle of 1.5litre of water.wahha.. After the drinks he had to get the keys to the door from a distance from us.. well he managed to do that eventually. When the groom came in we had another task for him.On a piece of paper were 4 lip marks. He got to guess which one was my aunt's. Too bad he got it wrong and we punished him. He got to do push-ups and while doin he has to sing a song.whahaha.. Next, he has learn a dance from my cousin moses and perform it later to my aunt. Hah!the dance was hilarous la.. it was super lame. Next the groom got to express 7 ways of his love to my aunt. Eg singing a song etc etc. He actually said "i love you" to my aunt in 6 different languages la.. and the last one was a netherlands love song i think.. Finally he got to go through a door full of people..muwhahaha he got to give us red packets. Whee got money :D. When he got into the room where my aunt was he performed the dance.. wahahah another hilarous sight. Yay finally its time to go.. went to my aunt's house. They had the tea ceremony at the function hall(my aunt is living at my old condo). The procedure was funny. At around 12 plus we had buffet. Then we broke off at 2 plus and everyone went home to get ready for tonight's dinner. Went home..slept woke up then everyone gathered at my first aunt's house again.5pm we left the house and reached Laguna at 530. Its a country club at changi.At 6 the solemnization started.. pastor made jokes..unbelievable..haha. Ended at 7 and it was our free time. Took alot of photos..wahha and before tht at our aunt's place too.Dinner started at 8 and ended 10 plus 11.Many events happened during the dinner..lazy to type..its goin to be very very long.After dinner my cousins was like taking all the roses here and there..weird la..they even took the sashes on the staircase. Left the place at aroun 1130, my father sent my brother's girlfriend home first. Reached home at around 1215..bathed and slept. Tiring day i had..

Woke up at 730 today..service then break and lunch.Slacked in church, went over oppsite to have dessert. David and xingjie then came home with me. They lingered artound for a while then they went home. Tried to study but couldnt concentrate.. at around 6 plus went to my uncle's house for dinner.. practically nothing to do.. but i brought my ss book there.Came home early..and here i am.haha.

oh well..im so tired think im goin to sleep soon. Hopefully tml's paper wouldnt be tht hard. hah wishful thinking.. bye

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

uh oh..dont think im dumb. is something out of place?aahh so many things bombarding me, mid year is tomorrow and im not really prepared for it.Decided not to study much..concentrate on my O level chinese. I need a break!!Maybe i should copy Shaun, dont come to school for 3 months.. stay home play or go out play and work. Enjoy myself till i drop..whahahaa.. how i wish i could. sigh

yay im offically in the worship band. haha looking forward in serving Him further through music :D. Happy that i could.. but still need to improve more..not much of a breakthrough in my skills. Practise practise practise....