haiz.. got to know tht the old system of the 3 month jc thing still exist in this year's sec4 batch..2004 was suppose to be the last batch..haiz stupid ministry of education!! =P AND i could only stand down in my cca during june..argh.. wat the hell. I want my master rank!! and i might not be able to get it..shucks.

hmm..its goin to be the end of march soon. CCA, muwhaha gonna offically step down this fri. Ncc is so going collapse without the current keyholders now.. not tht im being mean or something..but the current sec3 cant take over us. Ms wong asked me how would i celebrate the end of my cca..muwhaaha the thing is im goin to celebrate by abusing my rank this fri..muwhaahahaha!!O levels chi is nearing..just started mugging like mad for chi.

oh yea..2 events to look forward this year wld be sonicfest 2005 and fop 2005. Planetshakers, united live and sonicflood wld be leading sonicfest this year..and as for fop wld be delirious and hillsongs. It wld be great. And fop wld be just a wk before sonicfest..wahha two great events in 2 consecutive wks.

GIVE ME A BREAK..why cant they all just shut up for once?!shut up shut up shut up!!

Look at the time now.hmm..have been busy these 2 days..good and bad things happen. Pissed with one teacher in school..Morning had sports carnival..i dont even know wat i was doin when i was playing my game- soccer i was playing well.Sigh..im so stupid..then decided to be the reserve for floorball..dont want to cause the team to lose.. after which went to boon keng for lunch with jian hao, najeeb, alex and billy. Wanted to bowl after lunch but the bowling alley didnt have any lanes for us. Went to mustafa to kill time..all of us did lame things..haha. Went home..bathed and went to for service.. hmm..i was the guitarist during worship.. was pretty bad? sigh..shall stop here..sleeping..bye

hmm..cant talk to her..didnt talk to her for abt 2 days le..haiz haiz haiz..

hmm..have been lazy to blog.Had a great week end.Things are goin fine this wk too.
By the way..i understand now why ppl like super teen wrkshop..because the trainers are DIRTY-MINDED freaks..wahhahaha =P
and someone blocked me in msn..haiz i roughly know the reason..all my fault.
I had soccer after school today..got rammed in the stomach twice and the face once..haiz haiz :P . Sports day is coming up hopefully 4e1 could win something..haha!!thts all i guess..bye

decided to attend sch tml..
one thing.. I HATE MY HOUSE..everything in it..everyone in it..hate hate hate..the heck. im still going..dun think just those dumb remarks wld shut me up like it used to. This time im defying..i will find my own means and ways to go.

we wish you a merry christmas we wish u a merry christmas we wish u a merry christmas and a happy new year!!

i have nothing left to lose..yes..definitely.. I finally understood the fury, sadness and disappointment he had before.. Im feeling them.. anger is overtaking my heart..yes. This story shall end.. there is no such thing as happily ever after.

bought 2 new games..gonna test them out now..bye.

i have known this was coming..sigh..what can i do? I always hope that it would go back to the way it was..but i know it wldn't. Why am i so dumb? Kept telling myself to stop..but it doesnt really help.. i shall stick to the plan.. im blogging nonsense. bye

i want to improve..go to another level in my guitar skills but i dont know how to..just stuck there..how how how??argh..no improvements no changes..maybe i aint cut out for this?sigh. They say i need to listen more..but i where can i d/l songs? I cant possibily buy every new CD..they arent even helping..sigh. Forget it..its just so useless.

do re mi fa so la ti do..
do ti la so fa me re do..
do mi so ti..
re fa la do..

____________help! frustrations..

oh well..it finally ended. Part A camp..it turn out rather fun for the sec 1s.First day..ok. Second day..disastrous. Third day..i lost my cool. There many unhappiness and disappointment during the camp between the sec 4s and the teachers. Sigh dont want to go any further.. Rather disappointed with many people..Sec 1s, 2s and 4s. Pissed with the teachers..where are their brains?

missed church..soccer training..sigh. A maths mock exam and chinese test tml..and i have not even started studying..

help me..im tired..

argh..stupid cca la..i really detest it right now.Problems Problems everyday..not happy with me come find me la! My studies are more impt right now then this stupid cca and unit..want to strip my rank?strip la..the hell i care like tht..officers go eat shit la..make up your stupid minds..what u really want..argh.

argh..2 things which made me pissed today. Firstly..jacob. That idiot threw my history txt bk, a amths bk and my chi newspaper in the dustbin. For wat reason? He didnt want me to study and get high marks for history..GROW UP LA YOU PIECE OF SHIT GO BACK TO PRIMARY SCHOOL.Secondly i told the part D's tht they NOT suppose to go home during the camp..so can u all just shut the hell up and stop creating problems?! Plus faizal..wat the hell is tht attitude..the hell u are the USM and u are giving us this shit? REFLECT .You dont even DESERVE to be the USM.

But had a rather great time today though..one thing is the MAPP workshop. Sec 4 express took a survey to determine their future career and studying style blah blah blah. Results are out today. For the career thingy there is a list of jobs suitable for a person in the results.I was laughing like shit when i saw my results..guess what? My future job is to be a bus driver..barber and lots of lame jobs..(update this some other time).Excuse me!!I dont go all the way to 4e1 and study triple science just to have such a career!!I WANT MY REFUND!!REFUND REFUND REFUND!! They claimed tht it is ACCURATE..NONSENSE!! I dont pay $70 over dollars to get such nonsesne..

Had amths trigo revision after school..then stayed back in school to finish my school wrk..well goin off now..bye

dots?i dun believe it..edmiral actually took the paper from the dustbin which i scribbled nonsense on it!gosh..shocked..haha..oh well.
Shucks..how forgetful can i get??i told mr oon that i wld put the giro form in his locker after school..but i actually forgotten to do so..argh.So pissed with myself..sigh.I'm sure he wld be scolding me tml..sigh..my faultAfter school..had chi mentoring and mdm yong actually asked me if i liked the sec5 girl that kenneth and andy said i do.I was like..erm is my taste that bad?And i do not even know her..hahahaha =P
I should let go..let God decide it all.I should not be grabbing on to the past..its time to make new memories.Must remind myself constantly..haiz.
Part A camp is this friday..cant wait till its over..and i wld be missing some fun activites..sob sob..hah.
thts all i guess.

_____________________________dReAmS

"Would u even notice me?"hahahaha..saw this on someone's msn nick..yes..would you?haha.Time is moving way too fast..its already march!Sigh..sometimes i asked my self..what am i feeling now?I dont even know..sigh..to be happy or sad?argh..help.Is sec 4 life all about mugging and mugging and mugging?My brain is dying..my heart is already dead.

___________________help me..where are you?you have flown away..siGh^

hmm..taking back what i said on the last post..sigh wasnt thinking right..im such an idiot
haiz i think she was hurt? Sorry..
School..horrible. Someone pissed me off in the morning..wat the hell..still have the face to call himself the in-charge.A maths test..gurantee plus chop that i would fail..sigh..lazy to go any further..bye