i have nothing to say..i shant come online anymore..i am going to explode soon..its all over all over all..over...good bye..

"Bang!Bang!"
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aaron was gone....

school was alrite today..eng course we had was funny..n jacob was full of nonsense today..made me laugh..got to thank him for tht..hahaha..went ice skating after school with guo bin, jun hao, david and joan..kinda lifted my spirits..but went down after that..kept thinking about it..the whole day non-stop..sigh..just so much to say..so hard to let go..sigh..thts all..bye..

another day..same old routine...school?spent the whole morning watching movie..slacking..then we had a quiz given by mr siva in groups of 3..najeeb and andy were in my grp..we were on the verge of losing..but we still won in the end..after quiz..movie again..was feeling sleepy whole day..sigh..after school had lunch at mac with andy, kenneth, wei kiat, guo rong, gerald and wen yang..
hmm..its gone forever?i am inferior to him..nothing more to say..shall i pull back?sigh..i dont know..forget it..

i have nothing to say..everyday is juz like before again..and i am sorry..i let down 2 people..i am really really sorry..bye..

haha..i was right after all i was right..haha..

Flood

Rain, rain on my face
It hasn't stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

[chorus]
But if I can't swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up
Lift me up - when I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again

Downpour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean, I'm losing control
Dark sky all around
I can't feel my feet touching the ground

chorus

Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me

chorus

Lift me up - when I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again

hmm..this song is flood by jars of clay..its just like what i am feeling now.."my world is a flood"..suddenly thought of this song..got to thank jian hao for sending the song as i dont have it after i just reformatted my computer..

day by day it goes like this..i have nothing more to say..if this is what it was suppose to be then so be it..its just that it would be the same old life again..dreaded it..i just wish that everything goes well for her..i would just be in the dark helping her..was feeling real down the whole day..emptiness..results are back..emotions and thoughts running wild..sorry everyone..dunno why i was really pissed when i found Fabian had put a worsheet in the ohp then..it was blocking the bulb in the ohp n was not working proparely..i threw the worksheet back at him then..sigh..went out with my pastor n a few of my friends..had dinner with them..was feeling moody the whole while..feeling bad as it has sorf of affected them too..sigh..thts all..dun feel like blogging anymore..

because the outcome is inevitable..because i am hopeless..because i can't do anything right..sigh..its useless..

chem:fail
english:fail
e maths:fail
a maths:fail
history:pass

hahahahahaa..i am so hopeless..hahahahaa..

Chinese:F9
Bio:F9
Phy:C5

guess i wld either retain or go NA nxt yr..

i just can't help it..things aren't the same..family..friends..i had enough..so many years of tolerance..i would do it soon....

hmm..deleted the previous post..went too far i guess..was really pissed..haiz..another day passed..things arent the same..dun feel like blogging anymore..thts all..

argh..my new guitar strings broke..nt even started strumming on it yet..haiz..bad day today..went to peninsula plaza to get them today..and went to church after tht for a meeting..bascially spent the whole day doin nth in the morning..argh..so damn pissed now..guess i wld be posting more later..

hahahahaha..i fail in whatever i do..i was right all along..from the start..hahahaha..after all this..hahaa..so tell me..TELL ME..WHATS THE DAMN BLOODY POINT???WHATS THE DAMN BLOODY POINT!!!AFTER ALL..after all..after all i am worthless...hahahaahha..

what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?what do i exist for?

Over..
today was another terrible paper..a maths didnt finish it..bio the whole paper was practically nonsense..exams ended..but i still dun find the joy tht exams has already ended..the stress was still thtere..when results come back..haiz dun wan to even think abt it..

Wee~
haha..went to yishun juz now wif jianhao, jeremy and najeeb to buy games..bought a new game..naruto 2! yea..have not play the game..later i guess..

Gone with the wind..
another day passed..things arent the same any more..pieces of the answer is starting to form out..its juz wat i tot..it juz isnt the same anymore..missed those happy times..i might be wrong..but..sigh..i have lost..the outcome never changes..

Exam
today chem n e maths p2..died in both of the paper..after tml..exams r over! but when results come back..i am sure i wld be in lots of trouble..sighz..

Sigh~
another day passed..was still feeling the same..maybe things arent the way i thought they are to be..but there are juz so many loopholes..i know something went wrong..hope tht everything wld be the same as before..but i know they wldn't..maybe i am right after all..confused..having mixed emotions..argh..

blog almost done..guess will finish it after exams..