Sunday
joan, eda and me were sharing quite alot of things about our church youths..its pretty heart breaking tht the youths are kind of not united and stuff..and they tend to leave ppl out..their attitude isnt really that gd either..
my cell group..sometimes i really wished that my cell group people are more united..cell group to me is like just a normal stupid gathering thts all..afterwhich when cg ended everyone goes their own separate ways..not contacting each other or wat so ever..its like a cell group doesnt exist at all..when i look my older brother's cg i kind of envy them..their bond is so strong..they are able to share their problems..talk..laugh and practically they are almost togethr everyday enojoying cg time together..my cell..none of this is happening..when i look at other churches cg too..their bond with each other is so strong too..sometimes i really wish i have someone to talk to..some people are telling me to share it with cg..can i?its useless..its only me and eda
but the older ones arent really gd..bascially i got all of my cousins in the same church..they tend to leave out the younger ones..esp to their own cousins..me and eda..bascially they dun really knows us even though we have been seeing each other pretty often..why?because my older cousins and older brother have gel together leaving us out..my own cousins and brother..we did not even have a gd talk before with them before..its so heart breaking..cousins in the same church..hahah..wats the use?eda tot of changing church before..the truth is i have thought about it before..even though i grew up in ecf..wats the use if im nt really growing..i have such a cg..the youths are like this..my cousins too..wats the use..i thought too..which church can i go to..
friends..as i said..sometimes i wish that i have someone to talk to share and stuff..yes..i used to share with her quite alot of things..but now..i dun..i really wish that i could again..but..sigh..sometimes i really wish that i have a grp of friends i can really click with in school n in church..school..who can i really be with?in school that grp of boys?i cant..for sometimes their actions aint gd..who else is there?in church?bascially noone..other then me n eda.. looking other ppl's friendship..haha..sigh..
i sick and tired of being alone..my life have been very lonely..i am bascially almost 24/7 at hm..no one to go out with or talk to..didnt really know my friends well cause i have never gone out with them before or really talk to them..then she came into my life.we started talking..iwas very happy then..someone to talk to..life was more interesting then..afterwhich we kind of stop talking..i was damn upset..gone..
life has like no meaning at all..home all day..study..computer..tv..noone to talk to..noone askin me out..argh..im sick of it..my feeling of loneliness..haha..no one will understand..i did try to talk to others..but its like..words fail me..
sigh..i have more to say..but i dun know how to go on any further..its just so heart breaking..sigh..
joan, eda and me were sharing quite alot of things about our church youths..its pretty heart breaking tht the youths are kind of not united and stuff..and they tend to leave ppl out..their attitude isnt really that gd either..
my cell group..sometimes i really wished that my cell group people are more united..cell group to me is like just a normal stupid gathering thts all..afterwhich when cg ended everyone goes their own separate ways..not contacting each other or wat so ever..its like a cell group doesnt exist at all..when i look my older brother's cg i kind of envy them..their bond is so strong..they are able to share their problems..talk..laugh and practically they are almost togethr everyday enojoying cg time together..my cell..none of this is happening..when i look at other churches cg too..their bond with each other is so strong too..sometimes i really wish i have someone to talk to..some people are telling me to share it with cg..can i?its useless..its only me and eda
but the older ones arent really gd..bascially i got all of my cousins in the same church..they tend to leave out the younger ones..esp to their own cousins..me and eda..bascially they dun really knows us even though we have been seeing each other pretty often..why?because my older cousins and older brother have gel together leaving us out..my own cousins and brother..we did not even have a gd talk before with them before..its so heart breaking..cousins in the same church..hahah..wats the use?eda tot of changing church before..the truth is i have thought about it before..even though i grew up in ecf..wats the use if im nt really growing..i have such a cg..the youths are like this..my cousins too..wats the use..i thought too..which church can i go to..
friends..as i said..sometimes i wish that i have someone to talk to share and stuff..yes..i used to share with her quite alot of things..but now..i dun..i really wish that i could again..but..sigh..sometimes i really wish that i have a grp of friends i can really click with in school n in church..school..who can i really be with?in school that grp of boys?i cant..for sometimes their actions aint gd..who else is there?in church?bascially noone..other then me n eda.. looking other ppl's friendship..haha..sigh..
i sick and tired of being alone..my life have been very lonely..i am bascially almost 24/7 at hm..no one to go out with or talk to..didnt really know my friends well cause i have never gone out with them before or really talk to them..then she came into my life.we started talking..iwas very happy then..someone to talk to..life was more interesting then..afterwhich we kind of stop talking..i was damn upset..gone..
life has like no meaning at all..home all day..study..computer..tv..noone to talk to..noone askin me out..argh..im sick of it..my feeling of loneliness..haha..no one will understand..i did try to talk to others..but its like..words fail me..
sigh..i have more to say..but i dun know how to go on any further..its just so heart breaking..sigh..
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