sigh..cant helping thinking things aint the same anymore..i shouldnt have lied..yes its her..its all abt her..i am a fool..why did i lie..why i cant tell her..i can't seem to like have a conversation with her now..its like so different..so hard to start one..i dont know wat to say anymore unlike in the past..why..i dont know..sigh..i didnt want to let go..and its all my fault tht it came to tis stage.. solely mine..so much to say..yet..

glen and ted's song has been a great encouragement to me..hah decided to write a song based on the verse simone lao shi gave me during youth camp..so yeah..got to get help frm glen..waha..

so many unexpected things happen to me..wahaha..i didn't really expect them to happen..i shall leave it all to God..