what went through my mind today has never been as real to me.

where's the Aaron who was never really bothered by worldly desires.
where's the Aaron who never felt heart breaks.
where's the Aaron who used to truly enjoyed worship.
where's the Aaron who enjoys cg sessions.
where's the Aaron who used to enjoy school.
where's the Aaron who is able to control himself well.
where's the Aaron who was never bothered by other's thinking.
where's the Aaron who is free from his thoughts.
where's the Aaron who doesnt even need to bother about many things.
where's the Aaron who is truly happy in his heart.
where's the Aaron who is truly free.
where's the Aaron who is happy go lucky.

where is he? where is he? where is he? He's dead. dead.

i doubt my abilities. I am not the so call smart Aaron that teachers, friends and family thought me to be. Im NOT. i emphaise NOT. I dont have the potential. No i do not. I doubt i am able to enter the jc i wanted to -SAJC. Getting into 4e1 studying triple science is just the help from God.I did nothing.Nothing at all. God just put me there. Its all just an illusion. Potential? bullshit. intelligent? rubbish. Accept the fact that im stupid, a failure, good for nothing. Dont get your hopes too high up. Im not who i am make out to be. Im just a puppet who is just being used by others. worthless.